I long to be your eyes and ears, to see the world from a consummate position.
I want to be the reckoning, approaching ever faster through the fields behind you.
I long to be your lasting fears, I want to be your midnight apparitions.
I want to be the sound only you hear when you yawn. Let me be the sweat in your pores.
As I’ve seen elation before, though I’ve felt seen anything like ‘the famous light’.
I had to go. But does no longer despair reside behind dead eyes at night.
I warned you so. I feared the call and fought the tired spells.
Every night I lose a life but I feel most alive in these little deaths.
I saw the year in stood here, though I never noticed any of the passing hours.
Despondency is not new to me. Hazy eyes, early hours become sanctuary.
The closing year became clear. I clean my hands of its struggle, heartbreak and misery.
You’re made of everything I’d always thought had given up on me.
I was worried they had me, I feared the waning moon had burnt out in spite.
Though I feel the frost beneath my feet, I feel the freeze begin to fleet.
In separate beds, in cutting weather, slowly you’re putting my pieces back together.
We are the 6am sermon, the silent oration. No one hears and no one knows that I once was so broken.
a beautiful record that brought me through literally the worst moments of my entire life. while dealing with entirely different situations, this album helped me see the other side of the things I was going through. the blame, the pain, the destruction, all brought on by the actions of one broken human, unto his friends and family. it made me realize the importance of life and how people care about me. it helped me realize I don't need some girl to be whole and happy. fuck that. I need the people that really love me. my own actions could hurt so many others. thank you christian, thank you the hotelier. we love you more than we can explain and we miss you. there are people out there right now, alive, who might not be if this record didn't exist. your music has saved people. it certainly helped save me.